the heart is closing the door / the heart is in a hurry / the heart is running late / again / the heart leaks down my legs when i’m standing on the train and seeps out from the runs of my stockings to puddle at my feet / the heart is busy trying not to catch the eye of anyone with half a familiar face / the heart is mistaking strangers for ghosts / again / the heart is listening to someone else lose their breath in a language it doesn’t understand / the heart is suffering from selective memory / the heart forgets it belongs to me / again / i carry it home in a plastic bag and spoon feed it dinner / fresh produce and last month’s leftover cravings / the heart chews and swallows / the heart is still hungry / the heart grows restless / the heart grows leaves / the heart grows into a tree to be split open / again / the heart is handed out / like pocket change for a popsicle from the corner store / for something sweet / the heart goes to the midday movies alone just to hear a booming voice / just to watch a world as far removed as possible / a world saved over and over / again / two bodies kissing on a gleaming screen / again / ryan gosling getting his wrist broken / again / the heart is taking off its pinchy shoes / the heart is imagining how two people might speak to each other / very gently / over the murmur of a car radio / the heart is dreaming about fire escapes / again / the heart is off beat / again / the heart knows what it wants / and thinks because of this it will never have to tell anyone else / the heart is a clam / it ate its own pearl / the heart is closing the door / the heart has been closing the door for a very long time / the heart lives in wait for the slam / the heart has been waiting for a very long time

[1] 关: shut, close
心: heart
关心: to care