I hear that you’re doing a project about transmasculinity, and what it means to the POC community. How do you associate the mainstream perspective of transmasculinity with the effeminacy that the white supremacy forces onto Asian people?
I haven't actually started that project yet. It might be a year before anything comes out. I have been thinking about it a lot though, and it's been building up. It has to do with a lot of my frustration with the lack of diversity among bloggers that were supposed to represent me. My frustration is still growing, especially with recent surges of articles that are titled 8 REASONS WHY YOU SHOULD DATE A TRANS GUY or BuzzFeed's 26 TRANSMEN WHO'LL MAKE YOU THIRSTY.
(cue, my expression of complete disgust)
Right?
Later, because of backlash, they changed the title to 26 TRANSMEN WHO ARE TOO HOT TO HANDLE. FTM Magazine today made a post called TRANS GUYS WHO DON'T OWN A SHIRT. So the first article I mentioned is fetishistic and heteronormative. It assumes that trans guys are dating cis women only. When the BuzzFeed article came out, I was like ew / this is fetishistic. And the third article came out – every single one of the people featured were extremely cis-passing, hypermasculine, very muscular, and after that, I was like I'm done. And out of those sixteen people, there were only three or four POCs. So not only are those articles fetishistic, but especially the TRANS GUYS WHO DON'T OWN A SHIRT – it's a horribly narrow representation of transmen for a number of reasons.
One, cis people already think that trans people aren't really trans until they had hormones or surgery. These posts just validate that type of thing. Two, a lot of cis people are unaware that transitional health is really hard to access. There's healthcare discrimination, and most trans people are of low income. These posts are just going to make cis people assume that healthcare is accessible, because the people to which the healthcare is accessible, they are the only types of people that are talked about. Three, for the men who don't fit into the hypermasculine mold, it is so, so invalidating. It's going to make it a lot harder for nonbinary and non-traditionally conforming transmen to be accepted. There are already a lot of stories about how feminine transmen have to lie about their experiences in order for medical professionals to see their identities as valid. Articles like these just don't help at all.
Why are we promoting this form of hypermasculinity? We've already deconstructed so much / had discussions about why this is so toxic. Even in terms of that type of representation for cis men – I don't get why we're still doing that. We're assimilating into cis standards rather than challenging them. There's also a lot of stories about transmen who perform hypermasculinity and misogyny, because they think that's what they're supposed to do, in order to be taken seriously.
Last thing that I want to make clear, is that I'm not really criticizing anyone on the individual level. People are free to do whatever they want. I understand that getting into fitness and bulking up – that can be really affirming for some people. For the first time, you're able to get the body that you've always wanted. I think that it's really beautiful, if that's your truth. But what I'm questioning is why only one type of transman is popular in media. The issue is more with publications rather than individual people, with how they're compiling these lists and controlling the focus on trans representation. It's not progressive at all if only cis-passing people are in the eyes of the mainstream. It's actually the complete opposite of progress.
In terms of white supremacy on that aspect – I'll say this, going back to my project about transmasculinity: I want to hold workshops related to dealing with masculinity. I'm thinking about doing two photo projects that, in general, touches all of these ideas. The workshop can be for white people too, the non-passing & non-traditionally conforming white transmen. And the other project. This is the one that I actually have a vision for, so this one might actually come out first. It's a project about my individual experience as an Asian transman. My race has influenced people's perceptions of my gender. These days, I'm read as male a-hundred-percent of the time, I mean, as the vast majority of the trans men on testosterone are. We have passing privilege. But even before testosterone, I already passed as male ninety-percent of the time. And I've always joked that racism and surrounding stereotypes of Asian men allowed me to do that. It kept me safe in some situations.
I noticed that my passing rate was different among people of different races. The rate was highest among white people, because they were most likely to enforce Asian stereotypes. Before I changed my name legally, it was a Chinese name, so that people couldn't tell what gender it was. I would talk about not being able to grow facial hair, and white people would be like oh I think that's an Asian thing / my Japanese friend, he can't grow a beard either. There's also that stereotype that Asian men are feminine: skinnier & shorter, even though my cis brother is, above average, six feet tall & a hundred and eighty pounds (where I would be size-wise, if I were a cis man). But to white people, they see me, and I'm short & really skinny. To them, I fit their image of what Asian men look like. A racial stereotype is what made me pass to them. My white friends (also pre-T), who are roughly the same size as me, would still get misgendered all the time.
I also find it really interesting, this strange feminization & desexualization of Asian men. This feminization goes against the prized male virility in Western culture.
They expect you to be less masculine. Whereas, if someone who was white was less masculine, they would find it noticeable. The stereotype takes over their mind.
What is the one piece amongst your entire gallery that you feel gives the least fucks about pandering to the white supremacy? Is it a photograph that’s dear to your heart?
I would probably say that it’s the photo with the Chinese clothing set. And the text associated with that.
Whenever I see white people’s upset comments over these photos, mainly trying to police my tone, like happier messages would sit better with us whites - then I know that I’ve done well. I already give zero fucks about white people’s opinions.
I give zero fucks about cis people’s opinions, or hypermasculine binary transmen’s opinions. I make my work for my people; the people who fall outside of the mold for transmasculinity in the media today.
I make my work for myself.